She didn't know what to do with the pain she felt. She wished it could go away. But it didn't.

Her personality changed. From being so optimistic about the world, and doing things she loved without a care in the world, she grew sour, pessimistic and cynical.

It came to a point where she sat down, crying inside, at a loss of what to do. Her life had changed, and she had let herself change. Is change wrong? she asked herself. It feels wrong.

Then just as she was thinking that, a bright light descended upon her. It seemed to touch her fingers as though it were comforting her. She didn't know what it was, but she felt like embracing it all the same.

And so she did.

Then you ask yourself, after willingly embracing that foreign, odd light, is change really bad?

After all, you embraced it.

The pain, and fear of pain is crumbling but I must get my head together and find little bits of time to relax... But while I am doing what I love, tension still lingers in my shoulders and my mind is elsewhere thinking of what will happen to the family. What if...?

I just hope it doesnt come to that conclusion, for I am at a loss of what to do if everyone around me crumbles and I am the only one still standing.

This life has come to show it is precious and is ticking away in our veins... we never know when we go.

I wish so many things, and it is pointless to rely on anyone else but your own strength and God.

Take this sinking boat and point it home.