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 Saturday, October 29, 2011 @ 11:23 PM
There was a girl. She was once happy and content with her family. Then one day, fate took a turn for the worse, and one by one, bad things start happening to her. She didn't know what to do with the pain she felt. She wished it could go away. But it didn't. Her personality changed. From being so optimistic about the world, and doing things she loved without a care in the world, she grew sour, pessimistic and cynical. It came to a point where she sat down, crying inside, at a loss of what to do. Her life had changed, and she had let herself change. Is change wrong? she asked herself. It feels wrong. Then just as she was thinking that, a bright light descended upon her. It seemed to touch her fingers as though it were comforting her. She didn't know what it was, but she felt like embracing it all the same. And so she did. Then you ask yourself, after willingly embracing that foreign, odd light, is change really bad? After all, you embraced it. Monday, October 24, 2011 @ 6:46 AM  Why do I feel like it's a hazardous cycle that starts over and over again? The pain, and fear of pain is crumbling but I must get my head together and find little bits of time to relax... But while I am doing what I love, tension still lingers in my shoulders and my mind is elsewhere thinking of what will happen to the family. What if...? I just hope it doesnt come to that conclusion, for I am at a loss of what to do if everyone around me crumbles and I am the only one still standing. This life has come to show it is precious and is ticking away in our veins... we never know when we go. I wish so many things, and it is pointless to rely on anyone else but your own strength and God. Tuesday, October 4, 2011 @ 12:54 AM Take this sinking boat and point it home. Wednesday, September 21, 2011 @ 8:12 AM  We can never expect what lies ahead of us. We worry and worry until it comes, and we worry of the next thing to come, and so on, when we are actually just supposed to revel in the moment of life that we are experiencing, be thankful and accepting. But we don't; for we are humans, and we are imperfect souls. It is our common test in life. I know my answer will come to me when I don't expect it; therefore I will not expect it. Wednesday, March 23, 2011 @ 8:57 PM
People change, and sometimes not for the better. Then they change for the better. It's always the same cycle that everyone goes through. The main question is, how hard will you fall? How badly will you fail life's tests? The next main question is: How fast can you pick yourself up? Disappointment seeps in everytime I hear people do things wrong. What has the world come to, wil I or have I already unknowingly been one of them? It's so difficult to tell. And there's another thing I realised. It's really important: What happens to a person may seem like a bad thing to him or her, but actually it CAN be a form of protection from worser things. Call it better bad news. Would you rather have this, or that? Both have its cons, but it's one or the other. Maybe when I was just a soul in my mother's womb, God told me to pick. So I picked. And maybe it was the right choice even when it's hard for me to see. It's clearer for me now though. This is extremely weird babbling, but close friends will know what I'm talking about. I have done a great deal/ a fair share of bad things, and why did I never stop to think how bad it is? I might regret it later. How stupid and rash I can be. Maybe because the world is so fast paced and time is moving so quickly people never have time to reflect. I have lost my will to write for a few months now since July. J.U.L.Y. That would make it 9 freakin' months of writing rehab. I really hope I have the urge to write again, since I'm terribly gifted(yet now terribly bad at english) :D Joking. Ha ha, ha........'-.- Anyway URAKARA is totally exciting. I finally get to see Hara act. Nicole is the best actor though in my opinion. Btw Hara donated 100 milion won(39000 US bucks) to Japan Red Cross. :D Omg she's amazing. I really want to see her house! Lol kepo. Anyway to all those people out there who are reading this, I urge you to reflect. What can you do better? Make a good resolution, not too hard to achive, yet not too easy. Till then, signing off. AZZZZ~ Thursday, March 10, 2011 @ 4:21 AM
Bummer. This is my first post on my 3rd blog. Or 4th if you count lj. Anyway I plan to start afresh. Pen my thoughts everyday here, cos it seems my memory is failing me, y'know? Apparently I already am an aunt. Some sec 1kid claimed I look like his (pretty) aunt. (I made sure he said she was pretty) I met some awesome people today and worked with em. Among them is the newsworthy (yes) 'Superman' who writes the letter S backwards on his chest and loves doing the 'gamba' and the 'macho clap'. Amazing that there are people CRAZIER than me or yanti. I mean come on, I wasn't given a farewell medal that said 'AZI the CRAZY' from my dance juniors for nuthin'. And I'm proud of it. Make people I care about laugh. Isn't that one of the best things you can do in this world? (among achieving world peace and fighting global warming) Plus, I met yanti and Jack after work. Met Mirah and Hajj at KFC. Awesome company. Good useful enlightening talk. Went back home listening to KARA's Mister. The problem is, I have a strange compulsion to do the hip/butt dance whenever I hear the song. I mean it's so fun to do right? Ahaha. Anyway, there was a kid who a packet of hot food today and my partner was saying it's "confirm Bee Hoon inside" cos it's supposedly the packaging. So somehow we ended up betting if it really was; of course I won a Coke. :D Thankfully, I did not get high or everyone within 100m radius would have run off helter-skelter. Ahahaha. Back at home I was thinking about quotes when suddenly a random old quote popped into my head. I solemnly swear that I am up to no good. :D I love it when I'm in that kind of mood. |
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