The pain, and fear of pain is crumbling but I must get my head together and find little bits of time to relax... But while I am doing what I love, tension still lingers in my shoulders and my mind is elsewhere thinking of what will happen to the family. What if...?

I just hope it doesnt come to that conclusion, for I am at a loss of what to do if everyone around me crumbles and I am the only one still standing.

This life has come to show it is precious and is ticking away in our veins... we never know when we go.

I wish so many things, and it is pointless to rely on anyone else but your own strength and God.